I don't want to live right now

I don't want to live right now
I don't live as I should
I don't know when I'll figure out
Why the pain of sadness feels so good

This shit will internally condemn
I don't get my proper sleep
Writing lyrics at 3AM
While the rest of my friends are counting sheep

Why, oh why, oh why oh why
Why are my skies grey
I lie, I lie, I lie I lie
I tell myself that I'm okay

Spilling emotions, I'm giving all my devotion
To stop me sinking in the ocean that I have made
I need a remedy, (fuck that) I need help mentally
I can't stop this anxiety in my brain

I don't want to live right now
I don't live as I should
I don't know when I'll figure out
Why the pain of sadness feels so good

This shit will internally condemn
I don't get my proper sleep
Writing lyrics at 3AM
While the rest of my friends are counting sheep

Why, oh why, oh why oh why
Why can't I be free
I'm tired, I'm tired, I'm tired I'm tired
I'm tired of being me