Die Tonight

[Verse 1]
As a kid I focused more on people's, negative inputs
And the levels I heavily went to, just to be someone never was meant too
It makes me feel like delicate feather especially when I could. never fit into anyone's friend group it sucks
I tried to be special but I was denied and rejected It felt like a million times
Likе the pep rally
No one carеd that I was offended
The fight to go finding a friend was a mess
I was hesitant..
Embarrassed or helpless
I'm scared to be desperate
It wasn't fair 'cause nobody gets it
If I die tonight would I be remembered?
I never expected to build up a platform that had half this attention
I didn't think for a second that my name would've been mentioned in depth
I want you to know that I'm blessed
And I wasted so much time over my regret so I compress em and tou could help but I won't let you
I sit and dwell in my own bedroom
I give you advice but I'm a wreck in my own head though
You don't have the slightest clue on how hard this is
I might influence an audience but I fight the truth with an argument
Am I the person I'm marketed
I threw my life in the garbage to become an artist
Part of me hates the fact that I gave my all to be something that ain't even started yet
If I die tonight
I died with a goal I never accomplished
I feel like a carpet
I'm a guy that people would step on I just never gave up
All I did was start writing the next song
I was too full of myself
My ego was headstrong I was dead wrong
I left ya and wondered "why are my friends gone?"
I remember being fourteen
Dreaming about me performing
I promised the lord if you you gave me a chance I wouldn't ignore him


If I die tonight
I'd reminisce on the town where I've grown
Will I go back if I go down this road?
I'm afraid If I end up going I'll lose all the love that I just got a hold of
No one sees that I'm lonely I miss you
I'd tell my parents I love em
Dad you are a great father and Mom your an angel
I know it seems like I'm drifting farther away
I wanted to say that I'm sorry for making it seem like Rosthern replaced you and I just erased us
I blamed you for being a way
I performed "Hometown" at my grad' I know that you hate it
That songs like a punch in the face from a son that you raised
I don't know if I'll succeed but if I die in my sleep
All I need to know is you believed
That means so much more to me and I promise you that I won't leave and if I have too-
If I have to go
I'll walk down a road even if I get so alone
From the first song that I rapped it won't be the last
I'll be here when I'm gone and I'll be here when you're sad
I promise, just look up to the sky and if I-
[Bridge]
If I die don't you cry
Don't be sad It will be alright
I'll be here I'll be by your side
If I die tonight
If I die don't you cry
Don't be sad It will be alright
I'll be here I'll be by your side
If I die tonight


[Verse]
If I were to die tonight
I'd remind my life is worth so much
So why do I hold grudges my album could uncovered what's uncomforting
No judging I'm so crushed 'cause I don't trust
I am so stubborn Well ya know what, I'm alone but
I've got my own brothers I've grown up with
I'm gonna go but I'll see you at homecoming
I never say it but, I love you so much
I thought I'd die tonight but I just woke up