Sadie

(G. Liszt, inspired by the traditional ballad Little Sadie)
I'm just a number in here
But in the world I'm famous
You know my legend
Know what my name is
Killed my girl
Cold blood in the first degree
And living and breathing
Is naught but a curse to me
Skin of alabaster and a pristine smile
Sapphire eyes with a childlike guile
Oh my siren her
Fire and fineness
Made me molten
Sated it made me mindless
My passion dutiful —
Stark in darkening savage and beautiful! —
I trusted this girl
This lusterless pearl
Now there's nothing I'll ever trust in this world
Her passion
Smothered to ash and then faded to an ember
But I loved her still May to November
It's twisted what her kiss did its silent chilliness
So vile and bilious
That I could not be calm, but I did try to be, tried
But I could not stand back idly
Her pretty pale lips, kissed and lied to me
Freed that demon of mine with a whisper goodbye to me
Something broke open unbridled inside of me
I flooded with an ire so fiery
The thought of her willowy way
Powered a vengeance
I swore that I will repay
I got into bed but I could not take any rest
Each beat of the heart like a stake in the breast
Each breath shallow
Taken with an aching chest
I lay shattered awake and depressed
No longer mild in demeanor, steadily
Deadly my thoughts, wilder and meaner
Anger's ember lit up a roaring flame
I stumbled up out into the pouring rain
The gloom and the grayness
Ruined and heinous
I wandered the town for hours aimless
For nights on end I made miles in circles
A shell of a man heartless
Living in the darkness
Every drop dried out of my mouth
Up out of my gullet
I loaded that gun up
Bullet by bullet by bullet
I wandered around town drinking like always
Shadowed in alleys, doorways, hallways
A shadow black wallower
She walked home all alone and I followed her
I crept up out of the gloom
She turned to me right there
Straight out of a nightmare
Color bleakened black
The world got soundless
Nobody else anywhere around us
Her beauty blinded me in blood lust
I did not see the gleam of the blade
And the blood gush
But I felt it wild and blissful
I looked her in the eye and fired that pistol
I dumped her in a dumpster
Shot and rotten and dead
Strode home and I got in the bed, blood
Boiling up in the body, hot in the head
I finally faded to blackness
Forty-four pistol just a little under the mattress
Woke up and made a run for
Knowing I was done for
With the police banging on the front door
I made it away by some kind of miracle
Late in the day got to the hills of Jericho
Made a good run
But I knew when they found me
Every man in the bar was closing in around me
They threw me through a dry wall
And with the red of the blood in my eyeball
I said
You're making a mess my name is Lee
I murdered her in the first degree
They took me to the train dressed up in black
And I died every mile for rest of the track
Judge got righteous
Talking about justice
But I'd rather be dead than that
Lifeless, lustless
It's a capital crime don't do me any favors
She shouldn't have messed around
Just read me the papers
I'm in a rotbox now
Hauling a ball and chain
I live and I breath
But I do it all in vain
Nothing to do here
But think about my vices
So I sleep and dream her
Beautiful but lifeless
I'd rather be dead
So that I really might rest
Instead of dreaming about that
Bloodstained lily white breast
Go get a razor to shave me
Don't even bother to save me
I'm thinking about you Sadie
Coming to see you in Hades
I'm a criminal past a shadow of a doubtlet
Ready to die plug me into that outlet