Fire(Stressed)

[Verse 1: Swami Netero]
I ain't smiled
In a minute/
Pro'ly need to see a dentist
That seems the only way to fix it/
Shit I got problems
Piling to the limit/
Need to get a scissor lift
Just to get me above the trenches/
More insecure than anybody
You've met in your life/
'cause I'm rarely satisfied
With anything I ever write/
Yet sometimes I seem to lie
And front like everything's alright/
When half the time I grip a pencil
All I wanna do's resign/
Like I can't do nothing right
I even fuck up on performamces/
Slur a couple words
From being nervous spitting choruses/
Always looking coy
From looking down at the floor and shit/
And feeling like it's pointless
'cause I'll never make it sort of big/
My mind is torturous
Can never see the positive/
I always see a problem
Instead of being an optimist/
Always say I'll stop it
But then seem to do the opposite/
It's like I'd rather focus on the drama
Than on solving it/

[Hook(×2): Swami Netero]
Lately I been
Stressed beyond belief/
I got the world above my sleeves
It's getting hard to move my feet/
I'm almost
Sinking to my knees/
But got to find the strength to breathe
Because my purpose ain't complete/

[Verse 2: Swami Netero]
I've never felt like
I'm good enough/
It could be from the bullying
I dealt with in my 'hood and stuff/
Pro'ly 'cause my mommy
Didn't compliment me much/
She just insulted me more often
Than she'd ever shown me love/
And I know it fucked me up
Because whenever someone does/
It's hard to trust them, all I ever do
Is shut them out and run/
Using drugs just like a crutch
Because I only light a blunt/
Whenever I'm in a rut
And need something to cheer me up/
I'm always feeling stuck
You'd think by now I'd gotten over it/
I've gotten older since
And had to deal with fucking homelessness/
The slits should've been closed
They've had moments of exposure/
But I guess they're still open
From my ocean of emotions/
Hopelessness is mostly
What I'm feeling at my core/
Feeling ugly, like I suck
And I'm unlucky to be born/
Like I'll always be a thorn
That's stuck in somebody's form/
'Cause no matter how hard I try
I know I'll never fit the norm/

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Swami Netero]
I'm tired
Of feeling low/
I got that fire in my soul
And I'm about ready to explode/
Try to teach my mind to cope
And stay focused on my goals/
'Cause when I don't, I know I'm prone
To feeling choked by all my woes/
Getting close to losing hope
But it ain't over 'til I say it is/
Mood's a rollercoaster
And I'm in the operator's pit/
Could hit the brakes quick
If any minute it gets dangerous/
Just got to stay awakened
And patient during the major dips/
Know I'ma make it
Just got to concentrate on progress/
'Cause even the longest walks
Are accomplished by the small steps/
I know it's a far trek
But once I'm through the darkness/
The weight will be gone
And I can finally let my arms rest/
Not far-fetched
For you to want to be a better you/
Once you face your bruises
Then you'll see that you can do it too/
You control the music of your life
So think of lively tunes/
Or be stuck with the ugly ones
You've always been accustomed to/