SAM ANNING TALKS ON SUICIDE, LOVE AND PERFECTION IN A PERSON

SAM ANNING TALKS ON SUICIDE, LOVE AND PERFECTION IN A PERSON

so i realise that i don't have forever
i have now and now only
to speak the words i want to speak
i have had alcohol problems in 2018
4 suicide attempts
i had major anger and depression problems in 2017
even brought a knife to school
everybody thought i was tryna act 'cool'
even the teacher thought i was crazy
but no he didn't know the reason i had brought it
knew i couldn't do the job at home so i tried to do it at school
then i saw the girl i was dating face and i knew i just couldn't
loved her too much
i owe her a thank you
saving my life
with just a smile in the morning
when walking through Siena corridors
thank you
by now, reading all this shit
probably thought that this is bad
but truth be told with every word a speak has an extra story behind it
life is a journey and
i don't wanna miss the sunrise
macey, mia, laura, montana, grace
i owe my all to them
different points in my life that i couldn't describe
they have all interupted the pain
even put a smile on my face
i owe it all to them
and now people may say that this is only the beginning
and i'm sorry but its not
this is the end of the story
when i come back to life i'll be sure to piss on a few people
from heaven
but it still goes through my mind everyday
if i wanted to die today now
why didn't God take me yesterday
if god was even real wouldn't he take the pain
now this girl got me saying cheesy shit to express her
people tryna say she a cold heart bitch
say it again and i'll put up my fist
i don't get it
if i'm gonna die one day anyway
whats the point of even saying
that i wanna live another day
cause i'm just crying in my room
wasting space on this earth

now try and tell me that you have never been upset huh?
now try and tell me that you have never been angry huh?
now try and tell me that you have never been a mess huh?
if you swipe up this shit saying you haven't, liar
everybody been there
this is for the people who think they can't make
i been there
wanting to die because you feel like you aren't worth it
wanting to die because you feel like you a a waste of space
well you deserve to be standing, sitting, laying swimming wherever the fuck you are right now
and you tell me you want to suicide
i'll be there, to take the knife from your hands, take the ammo from the loaded gun
i'll be there, to untie the ropes that are about to have your neck through em
to pull you away from the edge of that building you are looking down over from
hit me up, i can help
i can say that i'm not proud of the way i've been
but i am proud to have met, such wonderful people
you say that you can't find perfection in a person yet i find it everyday when i leave the house to go see them
sorry for the last names everyone :)

teejay bond: everyone thinks we are dating for some reason, but aye we make a
laugh out of it, we make a laugh out of everything
wouldn't have you any other way, loves you
you liked me last year, i didn't know you at that point
well not really, i made you wet at the athletics carnival after we had
that memory of a water fight
zavier berry and i were pretty good mates and brought me up to you
and said to you "do you want me to tell him"
and i pretended that you liked me and said saracastically "oh she likes me"
you went red, and he said "how'd you know"
good times with you
this right here is an example of perfection in a person

grace saunders: haven't even known you for that long but i know that
i'll always have your back as you will mine
best hugger i know, best person i know
grateful, i remember i had posted something on instagram
and you had DM'd me and said something along the lines of
"you are real, like really real. i get along with real people so i think
we will get along just fine"
and over time, we spoke, started off just little conversations
and then we starting talking
like really talking
and i learnt a lot about you in a short period of time
loves you
another example of pure perfection

kate preshaw: okay damn, i don't have to try and be something i'm not
when i'm either with you or just snapping you
and we have been talking heaps recently and somehow you still ship me
with teejay but anyway
you hug really weirdly but i love it and i love how you stay true to yourself
could quite possibly put a smile on my face when i'm at my darkest
which means you are funny
got really fucking lucky getting to meet you
loves you
try and tell me this ain't a picture framed of perfection

montana grainger: i might have to take this one down cause she probably won't like
me writing about her which is okay
but she is there
and i'm probably getting eye rolls saying duh dickhead of course she is
no, i mean really there
me and her have had ups and downs but
we still have this like way of ending up snapping each other
when we don't want to
she makes me laugh out loud when i don't want to
she makes me smile at the ground and well its a different smile when i'm smiling at her
we came a long way from her wanting to beat the shit out of me at the mid of last year
but i do love her very much and i'm sure she hates me too :)
but no cap, perfection.

i fucking have people who love me (except mia who i'm like 95% sure she hates me but she is still Co
Ol
and i respect these people
and love them so much
even if i don't show it
another list (sorry for last names again)
lily drew - perfect
macey cook - perfect
rani roy - perfect
ella-dawn holden - perfect
levi dillon - perfect
mia willaims - perfect
lajon lorbach - perfect

you just gotta have someone to set my mind straight
have to end it here, i'm on a deadline to get this out on GENIUS
thank you

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