Family Curse

Hands clenched in shaking fists
And feelings cloud up in a painful mist
Drunken thoughts conjure vices within
Generations carry their father's sin

When you died you didn't take it away
Instead I carry it with me every day
It's not your fault, I know you wished you'd escaped
But you're alive inside the man I became
When you died you didn't take it away
It manifests in every single thought I convey
I know you wish'd it was the end of that pain
But it made it's way, inside my veins

I feel you now like before, but more
This blood and flesh, now mine, was yours
But I'm denying the fact you've made it inside
I'll fight back, be better than that

Tell me how to fix it
I can feel you deep inside
Take away the sickness
I can barely sleep at night

Car crash towards a blinding light
Fantasies of the afterlife
Sick thoughts for a quiet night
Here's to you and the life I knew

Bottle after bottle, I see you so clear
I'm resurrecting you and now you're here

This is all your fault
This is all your fault

Tell me how to fix it
I can feel you deep inside
Take away the sickness
I can barely sleep at night

Wash away these feelings inside me
Regrets and times I wish I still could see
Maybe I just need a reason to believe I can be set free
That is all I need