Beautiful Mind

Verse 1; (Noaksey)
When I wake up? Gotta dust myself off; carry on; Look out;
My patients Has a minimum capacity; im simple minded; actually...
I see the world in black and white; But you dont see as i see;
Due to the shh on tv; There's an upper and a middle;
And, lower class is me? ya'll can have a laugh at me;
But, please give me a reason for this pain and confusion
These thoughts inside my mind; i, can't see past illusion
I wanna be a winner, but it seems im always loosing;
Mind's dieing from the drugs that im constantly abusing
Using; this anger... I just can't handle...
These aches and these pains; leave my brain feeling mangled;
Its hard to digest; when, its trapped in your chest
So, i constantly push it to the back of my head;
Were once feeling at your best; but, now im feeling vexed;
Cah every time I see myself; all I see is fucking death!
(HOOK)
Verse 2;(Noaksey)
If you have ever seen violence and its been close to home;
Know that it is even closer when the house was your own...!
If your born into money then The benefits you reap..
Is a good night sleep; And, always having food to eat
The basic necessities of life; See, I am outa sight
I am out of light, So, Gimme me a direction;
A clue and a knife; you can catch me out at night!
Every life is given; but, mine was taken right!?
(Clarky)
So, i ain't taking sides; but, now; (hmmm?)
You cunts; can rush; and duck the fuck out! (suck out)
I run up in this game; im stuck now...but;
Ima buck; up in this dub like shes a slut! (ahh)
I ain't saying that im bad; or i regret the life i had;
I think its mad how; i can come from nothing and;
Still stand proud; cah now i got alot so i floss;
Like a boss! beautiful mind; ugly world; its alot!
Verse 3; (Noaksey)
I've done some wrongs That need righting...
See these songs i been writing?;
Ain't ever been about taking drugs! Or doing jobs in tha night;
Being anti social; and, yeah still I'm fighting;
Cause I heard that finding; peace with your demons;
Will, eventually enlighten? Is; this, just the beginning; or
Very near the end; of the world as we know it; so
Let's not pretend; I've heard it all before... its '02 again!
Each years the same; oh wait, what a shame; who's to blame?
Each day passes; growing older; im Tired and im broken
My nights are getting colder; Home alone; No ones to blame;
No ones fault but my own; With the weight, Of;
Others peoples problems on my shoulder; feel for a bullet;
In the chamber; And, a gun out of the holster... Safety's off...!
Now I'm able; cause the tables have turned; now its me who's unstable; never put down the weed fam I smoke a lot...!
(I mean the thought of growing up; but i thought id grown alot!)