My Mind

But do I have wishes, no shit, of course I do
But now they're different cause all of them end up with you
Crazy is the feeling that you never knew
Looking right through me like a window to a sky of blue
Well, I still see it how I wished it was
Spikin up my bpms, I wanted more but just a hug
For now, until I work up confidence to make a move
Scared to ruin what we have if you don't feel this too
How much it hurts that I'm falling down in love with you
But never even noticed yeah you blind but it's true
Escape is all I have
I got records on repeat you used to show me in the cab
Yeah, Take in the emotion there's a pleasure when I'm feeling sad
At least I know I felt em and it's better than to never have
Then to never have
Make me wish I never had

My mind, my mind, my mind
Bout to lose my

Yeah, but wishes, far from visions
I mixed up mine and then I paid for how I risked it
Never quite realize until you see the stakes, pushed through my heart and turned into a dusted state
And I judged before but I couldn't relate
And now I know their story, now I feel their pain
And It hurts like hell when I feel the weight
Of disappointing those you love who thought that you'd be something great
People crash and burn eventually but never me
Famous last words before he dropped a match and lit the flame
Life is grand
Or so they say until it isn't
Pulled in by a vice that ties you up into a prison
Blinded by desires no control no vision
And never saw it coming until it hit him
Damn, Train bearing down he stood in its way
20/20 in the rear what could have led him astray? Yeah

But life's a rabbit in this turtle race
I did my hardest just to make it out without disgrace
My dad my family
Those who really proud of me
Yeah, the best is what they bout to see

Yeah, the best is what they bout to see
This here a tribute to the ones who ever doubted me
If I can't find my heart in love, but otherwise succeed
I cannot do it all, but never going quietly
I'll fight to live and give em what's inside of me
Fighting till the death, running like I'll never sleep
But loneliness a venom given time it sinks deep
And others with their happiness hurts me more to see
Her, always thinking what this shit could be
Pretty thoughts, but guess it just wasn't meant for me
All I do is work, and pray for better seas
Maybe tides will change, maybe bring relief

You can't even look me dead in the eye
Her love is strong she's got you hypnotized
You say you love me but I know its a lie
When I work so hard to keep you satisfied


Yeah, well forgiveness is a virtue, and one that I been grateful of
To hear you say those words and know they haven't given up
And even if I never caught up with my chase for love
Another stone in place, building who I have become
No use to linger on what's said and done
Just try to make up mistakes
Full of laughter in the face of this wind, a gale that's hallowing my face
And every minute lost of sleep, and torn apart by those I am awake
And get perspective when he almost took my life away
How many times I press rewind to the same day
Saw the ones who been there, and the ones who been the fakes
Shed the former with my love, and turn the rest away
Yeah, and life's a rabbit in this turtle race
I did my hardest just to make it out without disgrace
They test me and put power deep inside of me
Whatever comes no I'm never going quietly

My mind, my mind, my mind
Bout to lose my
My mind, my mind, my mind
Bout to lose my