Growing Up

[Part I: Produced by Brokeboi]

[Intro]
You who are young, be happy while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth
Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, but know that for all these things God will bring you into judgment

[Verse]
Memories of sitting at the bus stop
The hustle and bustle surrounding me as I untwine
I wish that all this chaos would just stop
Let's have a toast to those we done lost who we love lots, uh
Rosa, I just wish I got some closure
I'd rather lose my head than having lost ya, and that's a problem
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Block in my head like a stone wall, oh Lord
Atop Pride Rock, I let a cry out and hope it's heard
I really watched a mother and her son's roles reverse
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Things fell apart as I gave those black thoughts a home, they started to bring me peace
They say c'est la vie, they say hope is a waking dream
But can I live up to expectations I set?
Sleepless, but busy making my bed
All eyes on me, and they're placing their bets
I'm just tryna give ‘em my best
But at times, I wanna receive what I give
Is it selfish?
Struggling with vices, no Biden, it's left me pensive
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My biggest fan said to me, “You're really good with advice”
Maybe you should take some

[Part II: Produced by YZ 虎]

[Intro: Jonny Farias]
Do not seek to have events happen as you want them to, but instead want them to happen as they do happen, and your life will go well
Truth gon' be the death of me
Fear gon' be the death of me
Lust gon' be the death of me
Love gon' be the death of me
This want for a better life ironically gon' be the death of me
Death of me

[Verse: Jonny Farias & Kendrick Lamar]
Look
I've been thinking lately, I've been driven crazy
Tryna get out of this frenzy
Used to hit ‘em with an "Np"
Now I hit ‘em with an LP
That's a lot of problems
Scratching my head, wondering how to solve ‘em
Feel like the answer's in front of me
Living my life uncomfortably
Can't find joy in the Sun and trees
Some days, to say the least, I wanna leave
You're too young to think about your ending
Comfort me, someone please
Nah, I'm fine, but I really ain't
Fundraiser, wasn't feeling brave
Mommy, auntie saw me spill the beans
But I'm still in the maze, keep me in your prayers
This mess I'm in's probably self-created
Feeling agitated and my head been aching
Everyone's saying there's better days ahead
Can they come quicker?
Tears dribblin', no NBA
The world's getting worse everyday
School trained me to feel empty, ayy
Happiness only lies in my dreams (it lies)
She probably don't wanna be with a mess
I prolly wouldn't even give her my best
I prolly wouldn't even satisfy her needs
I'm insecure, I, I'm miserable
Who am I living for?
Mother, should I build the wall?
All that I'm doing is bringing misfortune
I'm difficult, this is difficult
Sick and tired of feeling sick and tired
Shouldn't cry 'bout it, 'cause I ain't a child no more
Pondering what I've felt inside
I'mma drown in it tryna stem the tide
Feel like I owe every friend of mine
Made attempts at flying, I fell short
I'll make another attempt at flying (jump)
Hope it's the last one
Why your eyes so red, yo?
Look high, but I am low
Look high up to Him though
Sing another line from the hymnals
Just snapped at my lil' bro
This stressful
I can't change the world until I change myself

[Outro: Jonny Farias]
This stressful