Ashamed

[Intro: Jonathan Hay]
The journey...
The struggle...
[Hook: Mike Smith]
I'm so ashamed of how it got this way
I don't know what to do
I just don't feel like I'm, still any good for you
[Verse 1: King Crooked]
God, I told myself these are the words I'd never say
I'm my own worst' opponent, and it hurts in every way
You ever thought about smashing the mirrors in your house
So you don't have to see the same person that hurts you every day?
I have
I'm shattered, can I pick up the pieces before I pick up a piece
And squeeze, and give up on breathing, go live up with Jesus
Give up, I'm leavin', sick of the freezing rain
Switch up the season, the reason, because I need some sunshine
This umbrella I'm under, while it's raining alcohol
See we're abusing each other
I'm just trying to drown my problems in a bottle of Jack Daniels
Let me talk to y'all about a couple of problems I can't handle
See my whole family's starvin', I need dollars to feed 'em
A dropout, nobody college degreed him
I went the block route, where cops play God with your freedom
What's the odds? Imma beat 'em
All of my friends, man they're gone when I need 'em
The same song plays over and over
My life's bullshit, it's getting older and older
I pour more Jack over the soda, told y'all I hate being sober
Probably need to meditate with Deepak Chopra and Oprah
I hope for hope, some meaning for tomorrow
And I wish I didn't drink, but ain't no Geenie in this bottle
I know, I gotta change and realize I'm highly worth it
But until then, my favorite excuse is "nobody's perfect"
[Hook]
I'm so ashamed of how it got this way
I don't know what to do
I just don't feel like I'm, still any god for you
[Bridge: DJ Revolution]
All the pressure and pain
Tryin' to maintain
All the pressure and pain
Drowning my sorrows in bottles
Shame
All the pressure and pain
Tryin' to maintain
All the pressure and pain
Looking in the mirror, my reflection is a damn shame
It's a shame, nobody else to blame
[Hook]
[Bridge]