BPD

[Verse 1: JOHO]
Mid existential crisis
Flushing out all my vices
The world seems smaller when you know what the meaning of life is
Know what the meaning of love is and willing to pay the prices
Got work in just a few hours but at 3 AM I write this
Insecurity beckons as self consciousness swells
Go joke about it on twitter, haha I just took some L's
Laugh with them so it don't hurt, you're in on it so it seems
And maybe just maybe they might turn laughter into esteem
Oh now you're the funny guy
Make us chuckle giggle and smile
Wear your flaws on your sleeve
It could all be part of your style
Attack yourself before they can like B rabbit in 8 mile
You're clever one thing that you have going for you is your guile
But what does it really solve all you feel is mental distress
Emotional unrest but you tell people that you're blessed
So that makes it all ok, or so I guess

[Verse 2: JOHO]
My decision making is flawed
Mental state simply wavers
But hate letting people down
And I say yes to every favor
Defend people I love by sacrificing my image
Boisterous and outspoken, but sensitive and timid
I don't believe in limits
I get labeled as cocky
“You think you can do anything”
Who the fuck is gonna stop me
“No one cares about your football
No one wants to hear you sing
When it comes to you, don't want to see or hear a fucking thing
You're doing this all for clout, my god you love attention
You're doing this to be mentioned
The focal point of a sentence
You want people to notice you
You're extra as fuck
Stop talking about yourself
For once please shut the fuck up
Be normal, everybody else gets it, sit down
You're a fucking clown, we don't want you around
Somebody needs to humble you and put you into your place
You think you're really great but really you're a fucking disgrace
And now that we told you this, don't go act like you're in your feelings
All sad and pouty and mad and frowny
Get from around me
Don't post your sad songs, or tweet your weird mysterious lyrics
We're enjoying life, your bullshit, boy we don't wanna fear it
So post your thumbs down pics with your irresponsible friends
And forgive whoever fucked you over, you always make amends, and if you got something to say, fucking say it with your chest
Stop acting all depressed boy you're blessed, and that makes it all ok or so I guess

[Verse 3: JOHO]
I come from a city with generations of struggle
Everybody got a hustle
With savvy or with their muscle
Boys be idolizing future, but ridiculed if they Russell's
Type of shit that lead to conflict and getting into these scuffles
Everybody toting pieces like they tryna finish puzzles
And they love to run their mouth, seems we got a shortage on muzzles
And if somebody say something, there's certainly a rebuttal
To us this image is everything, by no means is it subtle
How long til I gotta say bye to people that I cherish?
How long will I remain alive? At what point will I perish?
How long til I meet my maker and Gabriel blows his horn?
How long til I have to pay for all the people that I've scorned?
How long til the lord decides we'll meet our end?
All loved ones that I've lost before man will we meet again?
We know for certain that it happens if you like it or not
My only question is how long do we got?

[Verse 4: JOHO]
The Older I get, the better I used to be
Before the mental distress, started abusing me
This isn't my cry for help, or a note saying goodbye
It's me looking to sky, screaming and wondering why
All this shit in head, made me wish i was dead
Every night I would dread, all my armor was shed
But now I'm stronger than ever, over the mountain I climbed
I been reclaiming my happiness, been reclaiming my mind
I been reclaiming my smile, and been reclaiming my heart
I been reclaiming relationships, been reclaiming my spark
I been reclaiming my voice, I been reclaiming my sound
I been reclaiming my ground, I'm not fucking around
I'm not fucking around, No longer fucking around
I'm not fucking around, No longer fucking around
I'm not fucking around, No longer fucking around
No longer fucking around, Imma be just fine

[Hook: JOHO]
You gotta love yourself
It isn't what they wanna see from you
Don't stop loving youself
It's something that you always got to do
You gotta love yourself
It isn't what they wanna see from you
Don't stop loving youself
It's something that you always got to do
You gotta love yourself
(Imma be just fine)
It isn't what they wanna see from you
(Imma be just fine)
Don't stop loving youself
(Imma be just fine)
It's something that you always got to do
(Imma be just fine)
You gotta love yourself
(Imma be just fine)
It isn't what they wanna see from you
(Imma be just fine)
Don't stop loving youself
(Imma be just fine)
It's something that you always got to do
(Imma be just fine)

[Outro: JOHO]
This song is called BPD
But to me that no longer means Borderline Personality Disorder
From here on out it means Beating Personal Demons