Frozen Tears (in memory of my cousin John R.I.P)

(Intro) Audio of my Grandmas Cell message telling me john died

(song start)
-now i'm stuck sitting in a moment of time the sounds around drown out the world is mine -
-I ain't ever giving up lifes beat me up I still ain't had enough-
- so I'm looking at the man in the mirror and who I really am Is appearing alot clearer-
-another cracked rear view for you to see threw -
-the trouble is i see the pain too and it always pushes threw-
-I just lost a loved one at such a young age such a tragedy-
-But I can't let that rattle me when I feel sad and mad trying to understand how life gets so bad-
- the diamonds story continues to unfold the days pass and its starts to get fuzzy when we look back-
[melodie of hook interrupt]sometimes I feel so alone"
-got your pic every time I look I get sic-
-this shits so fucking hard to cope with-
-I'm an artist but I can't paint tomorrow-
-If I could you would be here and I wouldn't feel this sorrow-
-time is something we own, no its something borrow-
-It sucks when were feeling so fucking empty and hollow

(hook)
[jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold
[2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze
[jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong
[2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone


{verse2}[2mercilous]
-I remember the days of having happiness but the grimm came around an took those days away-
-Can't believe you ain't around anymore got me walking in a daze-
-No more days with you an me what happend you got taken out of life so quickly-
-Back then I was most likley not to have kids now I got 2,3 and pssibly 4
Baby momas a whore but that would be no surprise to you
-always clowned on me about my choice in women anyway-
-homey I miss you soul seems to be dead without you-
-can't believe you won't be here for me-
I thought only the good dye young you must of had some secrets-
-and thats ok you always kept mine locked up and hidden away-
-you were the only one who new what went on in my home
-Your moma was always stressing you trying to say im no good just a vagabond-
-guess your mom was right but you still stoo by my side and helped me with my fights-

(hook)
[jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold
[2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze
[jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong
[2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone

Verse 3
[jab artistry]
-so i go threw the pain only to let the tears out in the pouring rain-
-it drives me insane but i got to be a man keep me emotions restrained-
-my daughters need a soldier but this morning I spent 2 hours crying an i needed a shoulder-
-its hard when there gne wishing we did more while they were here-
-you only live once and it effects your family and loved ones-
-I used to not care that none of you were near-
-now im thousands of miles away and i wish i was there going threw the motions of the day-
-I'm mentally in another place I need a change of pace now i just really want to see your face
{melody from hok interrupt "so alone"}
-emotional prisons they ain't all easy to escape time heals wounds but it doesent give presence-
-It just makes life more relevant-
-uncle I'm sorry, I know we got a past-
-this is another apology but hopefully the last -
-I hope you understand we go thru stages when we become men-
-so i regeret some of time idly spent -
-but I'm working twice as hard to recapture it again-

(hook)
[jab] Sometimes I feel so alone an the worlds cold
[2mercilous]people wonder all the time why these tears on my face are froze
[jab] its so hard to go on when life goes wrong
[2mercilous] so tired of knowing that were going to die alone