Ill Since Birth

[Verse 1]
In the past, Mom's
Brewing in the basement
House fucking reeks
Seeps in the drywall
Stays there for weeks
Sensing the collateral will make my brother weak
Him and his friends stay out the house so they can breathe
I was born in a glass box
Green glowing symmetry
You'd be fucked up if you came by to visit me
Hallow's Eve stole a part time job
From my genes
Jaundice got me looking like a freak show from a horror scene
Baby rock-a-bye-bye, scarier than imagery
Take me outside, maybe sunrays can heal me
Keep me in the box
Glowing down in the city streets
Paint a window pane the color of my detox
Since day one, been sick as week-old roadkill
Yet still
I'm spitting a rhythm that's hitting these chumps outside of the limelight
Your vision is weaker than what I've been rhyming but still I will not fight
I conquered the box and now I feel alright

[Chorus]
When I was a young boy
They taught me I live in a cold world
I was born sick with a hole in my whole world
Parents up 24/7 scared sick just to hold me
I wish I could be sick like the old me

[Verse 2]
When I was barely six years old, could've sworn I died
Hospitalized
Doctors rolling their eyes
Don't know what drugs to prescribe
But I've been taking care of myself since I learned to fly
On that day when the green glow opened up to the skies
But I'd been feeling crazy
Six AM, doctor's office looking hazy
I hear they called specialist
Six years old, thinking “fuck me
Is this how I go out? Is this the last time I breathe?
I had a good run but I guess now I'm done.”
Spent a week in the hospital
Drew blood every 24
Suck it from my veins but the tests were still going poor
Temp of 104, my body couldn't take much more
Still no diagnosis, still going comatose
One day my brother brought the N64
Tried to cheer me up while we paid our dues to skateboards
He was thirteen and tried to hide it, I don't think he knows I knew
But I saw the fear in his eyes the second my skin turned blue
I suddenly got better, they claimed they figured it out
Called it S.O.V., some other virus
Are you kidding? Doctor please
I'm not giving up, not giving in, not checking out, nah man
I've always fought harder than some bullshit disease

[Chorus]
When I was a young boy
They taught me I live in a cold world
I was still sick, thought I was leaving whole world
Parents up 24/7 scared sick just to hold me
I wished I could've been sick like the old me

[Verse 3]
When I turned sixteen for my birthday I lost my sight
Vision going blurry, facial recognition scary, thought I might
Have lost some weight? Shit
I'm 90 pounds underdue
For a doctor's order of diabetes, not type two
Prick me in the finger
Suck the blood from my heart
My islet cells are hindered
My kidney's torn apart
Misconstrued by every dude making fat jokes to their crew
No amount of donuts makes your jokes less rude
I sat with a tourniquet
Waiting for the nurse to get
Another needle through my veins
By now my blood bank's in debt
Mom starts apologizing for lunch that she's eating
Dad shuts her up while the blood keeps excreting
They've both got work in the morning, so I guess it's time they're leaving
I'm left kicking with my ass out feeling faint from central heating
Nurse rolls by, 2 AM, late at night
I'm sitting there all alone, lacking mirth
She says “Hun, have you eaten, are you feeling alright?”
I said “Nah, motherfucker, I've been ill since birth.”

[Chorus]
When I was a young boy
They taught me I live in a cold world
I was still sick, this time alone in the whole world
I see all the needles strewn about, but there's no vaccine
I wish I could be sick like the old me