Antidote

Man, this world is a dark place
Gave it my life, no my heart aces
Party's a part of the part that the part dates
All I need is guitar, bass, drum, snare, hi-hat, piano
For fuck sake, let me out of this cage
Let me get up a stage and rock it
Devils in my mind, get a gun and cock
Say ''fuck it'' I can translate what a gun say
One day I'm rich I won't die poor
This rap shit is the only thing I will die for
I'm waiting for Satan to come knock on my door
Please hear me, my lord, it's my fault my life is short
I pored like five or six bottles for my people
This, all this shit is lethal
Quit all this, this shit evil
And I'm not a model, kids never listen
Need all the support I can get, I can't get a little freedom?
It costs a billion in a figure of speech
It's a waste and I'm wasted on the liquor, capeesh?
It's pathetic, I'm ecstatic cuz I gave it my all
It's dramatic, need a medic cuz I feel this disease enter my body
Peace there ain't a lot here, unleash the pain, I'm out here
But demons stay aside me
Read my brain all mighty, it seems to be the fight
We compete but we define the beef and all the fights we had
I'll be damned if this isn't a conversation we had before
I think so, I remember, sure, how we talked all night
About we headed for the top, take another sip, have another shot
But the Jäger made me hyper
Tryna tape another song like the vaper made it brighter
Hate it but I like it, so I take another, why not?
Living it living your life like it's your last minute so I light up
But this isn't the vision that I initially had
Now, this shit is making me sick in the head
From a headache to a medic in a minute or less
Started to panic I just had it, I don't give a rats ass anymore
Please forgive me I'm an addicted mess
And I developed the baddest habit
And panic attacks had me second guessing second guesses
Bad as it gets, had to adapt to rap to rap better than that
I'm better than that but was lost for a long time
Made an attempt made it all rhyme, online, had no success
It was devastating, headed back to the lab to press rec
And wreck it, break it, record-breaking, records made in half a day
I resonate 'em, but the leg of respect just wasn't what I expected
Misled but neglected, everyone always said that it's sad
I guess that I'm infected by rap
There's a change that I won't live long
But as long as my longs belong to me I'm so rich
No cash, gold wrist, so blessed, noticed, so blast all this pain away
But there's a chance it's gonna rain today
And then I realize I'm paper made
And that it's paper thin, I wish I could take away the pain
It may maintain, made me hate the game, it ain't the same
No, it changed for the worse, hear the pain in my verse
Rage in the chorus man, it may be a curse
Fuck the fame it ain't for us, and it ain't ever worth, all the shit I go through. This I wrote for me, also you, I got hope for me, also you
Been alone, 4 seasons, all year, pieces all over the place
And I hate how it went, hate how it ended
Hate the beginning of the end
It's only a mistake but it made me the man that I am today
Try my best till I'm passed away
Hell, it ain't where I'm headed, faith but hot-headed
Got this shit on my plate I can't stomach and it's making me gag
It's taking the energy out of me
I believe, taking it back to the old days, I remember those
When I had those feeling that I never showed
Every page I ripped, every pen I broke
Every song I made and every fact I wrote
To my mom and dad, to every fan, I hope, that I make it out alive
Cuz I cannot cope, I've been taken by surprise
Been through hell and back, but this ink got me infected, need an antidote