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[Verse 1]
I swear I need a change in my life
I'm tired of dreaming these dreams
And living them in the night
This reality must leave my mother ain't looking right
I feel her stress pressing on me
Every other nights a fight damn
But can you blame her when her mother can hardly remember Memory loss she's diagnosed with a case of dementia
Struggling to send money to Colombia to help her
While im doing Uber runs bumping Dr. Dispenza
Tryna learn the ins and outs of the mind
They say to change your outer world
You gotta change what's inside
So I find me by a mirror staring into my eyes
Being radically transparent as I'm killing my pride
I must admit I haven't done enough
My actions don't align at all with the life I want
I'm holding tightly to the past
Dismissing what's in front
Fearing the unknown but at this point I gotta jump
I must not remain the same

[Hook 1]
I say hi to the new beginnings and wave bye to the old me
These hard times ain't gonna last, if you knew me in the past starting now you don't know me
Popping champagne with my main niggas
As we turn over a new leaf
Being honest with ourselves
As we find our way to wealth
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[Hook 2]
The last time we interacted I came at you harshly
Energy that keeping in, was becoming exhausting
I lashed out at you & then I had the nerve to claim
That you started the strain, blamed you for causing me pain Playing the victim when in this life that we're living
The truth is we control our emotions & how we're feeling
No matter the circumstances, it's are decision
And in this case you told me you wasn't trying be with it
So foolish of me to remain persistent
Driving thru a dead end just trying to force commitment
Whether you left me for him or not it don't make a difference
The future was set for the kid I failed to have the vision
Since then I've sat down to reflect
Without having my ego to play a factor
And point the fact, I could've avoided that whole disaster
Incase you took the time to listen
Just know Its all love even if it's from distance
I ain't mad atcha

[Hook 2]
I say hi to the new beginnings and wave bye to the old me
These hard times ain't gonna last, if you knew me in the past starting now you don't know me
Popping champagne with my main niggas
As we turn over a new leaf
Being honest with ourselves
As we find our way to wealth
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