Railroad Track

I'm a masochist, so i made a list of the bad things i have done. they won't let me rest, although i've confessed and i've done my best to attone.
Sometimes at night, trying as i might, i still can't get to sleep cos the life i've led replays inside my head, all my nightmares on repeat.
So could you please forgive me? i can't forgive myself. i'll lay down on the railroad tracks cos i can't forgive myself
I never knew that a boy like you could cost me so much sleep. when i think about the way that things turned out, well, it makes me want to scream.
Cos i know it's true that i never do things the way i'm supposed to. there's no one to blame for the guilt and shame save for me and maybe you.
But could you please forgive me? i can't forgive myself. i'll lay down on the rail road tracks cos i can't forgive myself.
I'll lay down on the railroad tracks cos i can't forgive myself