Growing Pains

Never thought I'd see the day I'd say I hated music
If you knew what I been through, shockin' I ain't lose it
The Lord says, test the heart of men just give em fame
Our nature is vain, that sorta change I couldn't sustain
Rather walk away, show forgiveness instead of burning bridges
Search for riches, leave you defenseless n curse ya friendships
First impressions these people show never match intentions
When you can't "count on people" you gotta trust ya "census"
Hence this – hatred's inception, made the decision
To change my direction
Said I was done with music short of divine intervention
Yet somehow here I am ah-fuckin'-gan describing my tension
Its expected when this method's been your only sort of expression
Depression's my source of aggression, forming poisonous venom
No weapon against me shall prosper, realest shit that I ever penned
On this pendulum, the love n hate man it never ends
Music is therapeutic, so I use it as medicine

Never thought that I would make to this place again
One day I love you. The next day I hate you, but I can't move
Til you make me feel the way that you used to, or Imma lose you
All the abuse you, put me through...
Made me who I am today hard to leave you
All of these dark clouds, can't see through
But where the fuck were you when I need you?!
Man I fucking hate you! Man I swear to God I fucking hate you!
I just hate you so much, Yeah I hate you
Hate that I still haven't replaced you
Cuz I love you too much, to give up
What the fuck, now I'm stuck, and I won't go away
All The love... all the hate...
The blood sweat and tears, couldn't go to waste
So this my novocaine, for my growing pains

Never thought I'd see the day I'd say I hated music
Some true shit you rappers influenced me to do it
God forbid a list is made and your name ain't included
Be about to lose it cuz someone viewed shit different than u did
Shit is stupid, so here's a blueprint to help you through it
All the accusing people of hating, y'all overdo it
It's amusing, fuming over people approving
Different opinions are normal stop crying like you wounded
Some of these dudes livin' inside a fairy tale
Bragging bout ya wave, but I stay with a parasail
It's rare as hell for y'all to show support, simple fact
These same cats'll share the shit soon as they name attached
Discredit ya name, tryna remain, center stage
Ain't getting paid, gon' stay angry 'til they waste away
And stop hatin' on new artists cuz we can both remain
Why close the gates, when we was supposed to open lanes

Never thought that I would make to this place again
One day I love you. The next day I hate you, but I can't move
Til you make me feel the way that you used to, or Imma lose you
All the abuse you, put me through...
Made me who I am today hard to leave you
All of these dark clouds, can't see through
But where the fuck were you when I need you?!
Man I fucking hate you! Man I swear to God I fucking hate you!
I just hate you so much, Yeah I hate you
Hate that I still haven't replaced you
Cuz I love you too much, to give up
What the fuck, now I'm stuck, and I won't go away
All The love... all the hate...
The blood sweat and tears, couldn't go to waste
So this my novocaine, for my growing pains

Never thought I'd see the day I'd say I hated music
Dudes is fuckin' artists over for they amusement
Seems there's very few people with truly good intentions
Try to use you, you call em out, they get defensive
You paying fees and doing free shows - they stackin c-notes
They know you hungry they make money exploiting egos
You got the juice you better charge when u got a movement
They spot is dead and you fill it up that's embalming fluid
Limitations only faced when lacking inspiration
Invigoration can drastically change any situation
Don't take for granted the standard to set ya expectations
Elevation of reputation's based on your creations
Fight for that starting position won't hand you anything
No violin, they hold a "G down", that's second string
Only you are responsible to feed ya family
Don't wear a blindfold and then complain that you can't see

Never thought that I would make to this place again
One day I love you. The next day I hate you, but I can't move
Til you make me feel the way that you used to, or Imma lose you
All the abuse you, put me through...
Made me who I am today hard to leave you
All of these dark clouds, can't see through
But where the fuck were you when I need you?!
Man I fucking hate you! Man I swear to God I fucking hate you!
I just hate you so much, Yeah I hate you
Hate that I still haven't replaced you
Cuz I love you too much, to give up
What the fuck, now I'm stuck, and I won't go away
All The love... all the hate...
The blood sweat and tears, couldn't go to waste
So this my novocaine, for my growing pains

Never thought that I would make to this place again
One day I love you. The next day I hate you, but I can't move
Til you make me feel the way that you used to, or Imma lose you
All the abuse you, put me through...
Made me who I am today hard to leave you
All of these dark clouds, can't see through
But where the fuck were you when I need you?!
Man I fucking hate you! Man I swear to God I fucking hate you!
I just hate you so much, Yeah I hate you
Hate that I still haven't replaced you
Cuz I love you too much, to give up
What the fuck, now I'm stuck, and I won't go away
All The love... all the hate...
The blood sweat and tears, couldn't go to waste
So this my novocaine, for my growing pains
For my growing pains...
For my growing pains...