Trust Issues

Chorus
Why do people leave?
Why do they deceive?
If only they can see
That they ignore my needs
I got trust issues x4
I got I I I got trust issues x3

Verse 1
Man life is a struggle, I swear it's so subtle
They say that they love you, that word is like rubble
Cause they tend to crumble, drop ball like a fumble
Ain't ready to rumble, we tussle in jungles
That's part of survival when I used to hustle
Because it was vital that I get the bundle
But all of my rivals, yeah they like to pummel
I'm praying for light at the end of the tunnel
Ain't playing the victim, I'm just speaking facts
When I turn my back and they speaking bad
It come out as anger but deep down I'm sad
And thats when the danger can come out as fast
Lost sight of my soul, I hope that I find it
Cause Jesus is real and he healed the blinded
It's part of the process, I'm tired of the nonsense
It's harming my conscious, the trauma so toxic
My cup is half empty no drips from the faucet
And people peel out when being this honest
My world is so dark like Punisher comics
I watch my surroundings I'm overly cautious
I see the betrayal I'm feeling so nauseous
Should I just hide pretend there's no monsters
Under my bed or hiding in closets
That mental no joke when feeling you've lost it

Chorus

Verse 2
Been patiently waiting but patience is draining
I'm facing this dangerous plotting by Satan
But they not relating my symptoms are blatant
At least in my mind suicide a temptation
They say that the cure is in medication
But labeling people can lead to self hatred
Just went through a break up, my soul is so vacant
I'm tired of complaining but things are not changing
If I told you all of the actions I've taken
I'm trying my best and my heart they are breaking
At the end of my rope and I'm trying to make it
On day to day basis I face this abrasive
Feeling depression I'm always so anxious
How long can I take this, I'm really unsure
I feel like a zombie cause there is no cure
All of this fake ness is all on my phone
Now how can I break this cycle I'm on
I like to be known to fight and be strong
But tryna endure by writing these poems
Where is the love evidently not shown
I'm feeling so blue when I'm in this zone
There is many like me so I'm not alone

Chorus