Rose-Colored Boy

Verse 1:
Sitting here in front of these lights burning bright
Cameras all rolling like I'm about to die
Like a live execution; teleprompters showing my final words
But they all want me to smile like I've been through worse
All want me to be happy, optimistic for a pessimist
Is that even possible? I'd be setting a precedent
No pressure; put these special specs on
Lenses crimson in colour; man, where'd you get 'em from?
It's like a weight has been lifted, the rope untied
Wait, you're fetching a shorter rope? Forgive me, I tried
It ain't easy being blue as Hayley when they entertained the troops in Kuwait in 20-10
Remember when whenever I laughed I didn't choke?
Nah, me neither; hey man, now there's a joke
Stop insisting I'm not lost; you see a map?
Don't say "don't be pissed off"; it's how I rap

Hook:
Hang with me & my weather
Storm clouds over my head; inside it wars raging
I wanna keep it low key but my heart is breaking
Y'all know me, I'm in a war of attrition
I don't want anyone to see me
Eyes dark, a night sky without stars
Believe me, I tried, but I don't have a choice
I will never be a Rose-Colored Boy

Verse 2:
I think I might be a Misguided Ghost
Never looking on the bright side though the camera's getting close
I know it see the tear marks & I'ma let 'em get a little longer
And I ain't gonna smile 'cos I don't wanna
I would love to be your Rose-Colored Boy
But I never see a reason for my facial muscles to deploy
This ain't a ploy; I'm so annoyed, I feel a void
And y'all ain't gonna fill it with your optimistic happy noise
In my state you're unbearable; where's the joy you speak of?
My mother died of cancer & I gotta be responsible
I don't wanna be a parent to my brothers
I just wanna rap & write some excellent Paramore covers, ha
But the good die young; this ain't the world you wanna see
Unless you wanna go blind; I'm of the half-empty breed
Ever bleed, be it blood, sweat, tears, or hope
This spark ain't enough to burn this rope

Hook

Verse 3:
I will take you to wherever you wanna go
But I'ma just stay in the car & blast After Laughter
'Cos I know it's now a part of me, a part of this heart of me
Melancholy music making motions in my arteries
Glasses are off, tears flowing in this dead zone
Paramore floating through these headphones
Paranoid, disturbed, & nervous; ever walk the line
Boy, you ain't ever seen my mind
I'm a Renegade, yeah, Let The Flames Begin
Now the grass ain't green & got serpents slithering in
What a shame we remain these fragile Broken Things
Butterflies with broken wings
Still shine Brighter than anyone, if only to ourselves
A reflection of our personal hells, ah
Lock the door to capture our voice, my voice
I will never be a Rose-Colored Boy

Hook (x2)