I'm Not Anxious

(Intro)
Just one question .. why so anxious (joker voice)

(Verse 1)
I️ don't know how anxiety feels/
How you gone tell me that anxiety kills/
Look this is all a matter of will/
Only thing I'm anxious for is being wired a mill/
Or signed to a deal, a record label and you feel that this wrecks you inside/
Records label you as high strung, meaning you could not relax if you tried/
Since you were born this has been a thorn in your side/
But how you can't beat this, you're an armory you have all the weapons inside

You

Nah fuck that it's all in your head/
Books are just a cover up like crawling in bed/
Yeah docs talk but fuck what all of them said/
Tell em go drug themselves with all of those meds/

Inner strength, I'm tapping/
I️ do rag (durag) bout this, it's mind wrapping/
You draw, a fine line in ya mind to define what's happening/
Shit happens, and you let I️t drain ya brain, you hearing me, to you I️t's electroshock therapy
Mind zapping/
It's simple, breathe in with time passing/
You let things, get dark like time passing/
You can't be serious, so in all seriousness, I'm laughing/
All I'm asking/
Day to day keep your head on your fucking shoulders/
The day after tomorrow only gets so much colder/
Need to think like me, like you're brain stumped
The smallest inkling, you're over - thinking/
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You hear, this don't exaggerate/
I'm not saying I️t don't matter, I️t matters wait/
I️t matters to make matters worse for those who don't take matters (up) into they own hands they rather wait
Be told what I️t is by a doc lay on a mat, flat faced and exacerbate/
Don't be passive mate
This no sub - way you derail, you have a massive break, then need a massive break/
Your clouded thoughts overcast your fate/
And I️ could speak on this shit to outlast the tape/
I️t gets the best of you that's the trash I️ hate/
And minds clash whenever I'm asked to relate/
I️ won't play along, mask or inflate/
These theories, you hear me/
Look, in life were only passengers
I'll help you captain your fate I'll be your path to escape/

Grab ya ear, woosah
Say I️t, woosah

Breathe in, fill air in your diaphragm/
At any moment you feel life is going ham/
In life you going places, you know it and/
Your hard drive could easily overload your ram/
No matter thoughts, thinking you should've told your fam
You have support need someone to hold your hand/

You're not alone

So don't check the book, don't watch the vlogs/
Screw research, fuck the blogs/
Need to take your mind off, take a jog/
Need time off, take I️t dog/
Get one of those balls you squeeze when your mind is breaking off/

Yeah

Need to calm down, this the way/
I️ don't give the fuck statistics say/
Relaxation works I️ heard it's okay/
Yoga is a way to take the mind away/
You could distract yourself, find a way/
Or Journaling, write I️t down, everyday/
Coping methods, let em lead the way/
I️ can't lead the way

(Cause) I'm not anxious

I'm not

You're not

(Verse 2)
You won't stop, you really won't/
Tryna simplify this/
You don't get I️t you really don't/
Choose you fucking words selectively/
When I️t happens, life's a mess/
Lungs toss up air but you can't catch your breath/
Heart begins to pound I'm in a pool of sweat/
Get dizzy weak in the knees pain in the chest/
Get super distressed, emotionally .. and I can't stop trembling/
No You don't know how I️t feels/
The smallest of issues become the biggest of deals/
Don't believe me, ask 19 percent of adults it's happening to
They'll tell you it's real/
Should be a higher number recorded/
But cause of you most of us leave I️t unreported/
Know what it's like to breakdown, by strangers/
Then eyeballed and checked on, by strangers/
It's more than feeling like grave danger/
And you giving me rage anger/

(*Wait just listen)
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No YOU listen, you think I'm not trying/
You think I️ could brush this off you think that I'm lying/
I️t gets hard to concentrate and I️ feel like just crying/
Trouble sleeping at night and I️ feel like just dying/
You thinking it's easy, you thinking of one type/
Yeah
You thinking of panic disorder/
What about generalized anxiety where you worry on routine shit that's everyday/
Separation anxiety, for kids who freak out excessive whenever their parents away/
(Huh) Wanna describe living prison, anxiety from medical condition/
Selective mutism, that kids young kids that can't speak in certain situations/
Think I'm better off on, medication, for anxiety triggered off, medication/
Agoraphobia, or social phobia, that's YOU causing the fucking suffer/
Fear cause self consciousness, on being judged or viewed negatively by others/
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Don't wanna try on my sneakers/
Won't put yourself in my shoes/
Zip I️t if you lack evidence/
I'm saying shut your mouth if you don't have a clue/
To manage this you don't know what I️ have to do/
You don't
You don't know what puts me at risk/
Trauma, personality, illness/
Uh-huh
Sometimes I️ wish that I️ couldn't feel shit/
It's Like one moment I'll be doing fine/
Then heavy panic in minutes and I️ feel sick/
You mock me but watch me, I️ still tick
And fuck You for judging me, that's real shit/
Yo This could lead to depression/
Or that I'm suicidal, you'll get that impression/
I️ speak to my Counselor, I'll have a good session/
Next minute I'm bawling, I'm showing regression/
When I️ just wanna hang out with friends not be on the edge and
In my head it's fuck all of you (!)/

For the day where understanding is all of you/

I'm so anxious

Yeah

I'm so anxious

Yeah