If I Could, Part II

[Verse 1]
I remember when my brain was filled with darkness
Before I figured out, where my heart is
I did some stupid shit, I'm not the smartest
People got hurt, and that was the hardest

But I'm just doing my part it's, not beautiful, but it's me
And if you got a problem with that, then diss me
I am listening, to everything that you say
Yea, it used to get to my head, but not today

I got this diamond, and I hold it tightly
I know who my friends are, they stand right by me
They're not hiding, they're not being slimy
They're talking to me, and not behind me

Fake friends? (fake friends) I ain't got time G
I only hang with people, who actually likes my rhyming
It's not a small part of me, it's my whole life it
Will be my love, until I find a wifey, but

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If I could, then I would take it back
If I could, then I would just quit rap
If I could, then I would make a sick track
But I can't, cause this is where I'm at

[Verse 2]
I fall in love, yea it happens often
But's it's rarely something that I feed, and get lost in
Cause it's always one-side, it's exhausting
So, I burry it deep down, like a coffin

But then you came around, and gave me something
That made me start to believe, in real loving
Cause we're like a match, that ain't no-one touching
And I'm not talking about sex, I don't want fucking

We started talking, because of music
Then we became friends, felt like we were fusing
We joked about love, but I think it was abusive
Cause now that it's real, we don't know what we're doing

I put the cards on the table, and then you did
But then you took ‘em back, now I feel stupid
I don't blame you, can't force your love
But now I don't know what to do, with this crush, it's tough, because

[Hook x2]
If I could, then I would make you love
If I could, then I would give you trust
If I could, then I'd believe in us
But I can't, cause that would be a bluff

[Verse 3]
I got this thing with my family, and my dad
That is making me both angry, and sad
Cause now I see it from both sides, oh why?
Do I feel like I have to choose - go left, or go right?

I love them all, but they don't like each other
Or maybe they do, but they don't act like brothers
When they write each other, there's venom in the words
So I feel like my whole family tree, is doing a purge, it hurts

[Hook x2]
If I could, then I would make them forget
If I could, then I'd delete what was said
If I could, then I would make sure that they met
But I can't, they're not ready yet