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I thought you was the best for me
Feels like just yesterday you was standing next to me
Pretending it don't hurt but pain flowing through my veins
Tried some other women but it just ain't the same
I wonder every night why you was playing games
Should I live another day what I contemplate
What the fuck is love when love just succumbs to hate
But shit you met another nigga and I hope he makes you happy
I hope he makes you fall in love just by saying shit that's sappy
Then I hope he breaks you down and leaves you feeling crappy
I'm done picking you up when you're down and your heart feeling scrappy
I want you thinking what the fuck is happening?
Tears rolling down your face but bitch I'm in a better place laughing
Cuz every night I feel my heart cracking
I'm still fucking hurt that's why I'm rapping
Devil testing me stressing me tryna get the best of me
I just pray to God he takes action cuz me and the devil bout to make a fucking transaction
I gave you my heart and all you did was just abuse it
I swear this shit is so confusing
You said don't put me through this
All the shit that you was scared of I told you I'd never do it
Language of lies you speaking fluent
Now I never give a bitch my trust cuz I know she'll just use it
I gave you everything but you was drawing conclusions
You got me fucked up with this stupid shit you be accusing
Gave up on women and fell in love with drug doing
Sometimes I just wanna die I'm tired of fucking losing
I could pop a pill or fill my head with lead til it's spewing
It really don't matter either way I'll be snoozing
You put on a good show that shit was quite amusing
But that's the last damn time a bitch will play me like I'm stupid
Left me all alone finding myself through this music
Like I'm stupid
I said play me like I'm stupid
Never play me like I'm stupid
I really wanna snap feeling like I'm better off in an institution
Getting harder every day to keep my head up when I'm feeling useless
Pain in my chest problems you made your contribution
I guess karma a bitch so I let it claim my retribution
I want you to feel my pain and my confusion
Let a nigga be the intrusion to your execution
You got me feeling fucking stupid
Last nigga hurt her so she turning good niggas ruthless
Play you? Nah I'd never do it
Feeling this fucking pain bitch you put me through it
I said you put me through it
This the type of shit to make a sane nigga lose it
Thought you loved me but damn I was wrong and you proved it
But you taught me to ever leave my heart exposed cuz bitches will bruise it
You was my baby
Now I'm going fucking crazy
So I'm opping xans til I'm lazy
Smoking shit that smelling hazy
The old me that used to give a fuck that niggas pushing daisies
Pastor tries to inform me that God always there for me
Tell me that the Devil crave me
I'm yelling god fucking save me
This ain't me I ain't saying I'm a saint cuz that goody goody shit it just ain't me
I said it ain't me
This depression fucking changed me
But I'm still thinking blankly
I just want the money
Fuck the fame can
Can you blame me?
Hearing voices daily
Screaming they hate me
I try to block em out but I still her the shit faintly
I'm fucking crazy
Even god fucking hates me
But I vow to never let another hoe play me
And I'm already broke so let a bitch try to break me
You niggas living large off that mainstream paper
Never known what it's like to be your own damn hater
I let her break me
No one there to help they just worried bout them self it's I ain't ever had a father so I raised myself a single fucking dollar to me was damn wealth just a friendly fucking smile could make me feel better about myself family torn apart seen it all all alone by myself cuz we never faced our problems they just collected dust on the shelf