Lost Time Memory

Years run by and I'm living with your shadow
Feeling more every day that goes by
I sit alone as I draw away thoughts in my mind

Fight the sun down a hilly road before us
The hazy shape of a boy and a girl
They rays give way, stabbing holes of the heat in my eyes

'Why don't you but out? Disappear and never come back'
Brushing off the hand that helped me

'I won't leave you'
You were firmly yelling
Grabbing at the hand that I held back

'You're annoying'
Moving away to walk ahead
And never looking back as I leave you

Was it the real you that I knew?

Lesson learnt, I don't need tor turn the page of
My life goes on, so I'll rot away h21ere

A time machine turning back to the day would be nice

Years fly by but I'm living 'fraid of dying
And drawing out hopes that maybe some day
Though I know that I am never to see you again
Won't wonder why

Wanna die! Wanna die!
Grabbing my own hand, cursing into hell as I sat there
Not a thing I can do
Might as well live it up while I'm still alive and I'm breathing

In this midsummer dream
Maybe see the younger that I was playing before you flew free
Back in the days that I had hid in the haze
But slowly running ablaze and burning red in my brain!

18 years, a boy no longer
To wait for her to fall from somewhere
Remembering the figures blurring in the summer in a heartbeat
Fight the sun in desert schoolgrounds
A smile from ear to ear it resounds

'Why don't we play a game?'

Another round, as you go round

'You okay?'
With a worried kind of wail

Things like you wouldn't ever get me
You act so sad but it's all just an act in the end

Today's a haze, better become apathetic
Keep up the pace I had yesterday 'cause
I don't want your heat to ever leave like in my sleep
If I can't dream, you and me that I'll see, and we will be so
Rather hold the past than to let go
Never wait for a break from the shaking outside world
That tried to reject me

'But you can't see the day break again without tomorrow!'

As if I would care in the slightest

Running by all the arid days that I'd kill just so they'd go away
Yes, I'd rather be all alone!

18 years, and kind no longer
He cried to God but can't get stronger
Reaching out both his arms to hold
Such a pretty smile he can't take!
Fighting suns in such a small town
Oh, God, why can't you free me somehow

Suddenly every smile I try to breathe is stopping now

Don't think about
That summer day
It hurts a lot
Deep in the dark
Or if I break

A voice is calling out
'Can you hear me?'
Disappearing

Somehow now clear
Aah, so that's the reason
Midsummer night dreams
As I reach out my hand through the haze

Cried to God, a boy no stronger
And in those days he stood no falter
A summer smile I won't remember
Though it stays the same forever

'Guess I died, and I'm so sorry'
Goodbye's too sad and way too lonely

Oh God, no, don't say that you're leaving
Oh no, don't leave me

I finally know that those hazy figures were just looking for this me